Process Report Essay Example | Topics and Well Written Essays - 1500 words

Process Report - Essay Example Working with polarities/dualities -- body and mind, duty and pleasure, straight and gay -- very much set the mood of this and past sessions and has been very challenging for me. Challenging because it brought me back to the way I was processing some aspects of my life, when I felt it was safer to be at one side or another of the spectrum, rather than the middle where unpredictability would jeopardise my safety and make me feel anxious. In (2T), when I asked Andrew what type of medication he was taking, I learned how little he has revealed to the assessor and indeed to me in the previous sessions. For example, he has not revealed to anyone that he is going to therapy or his doubts about his sexuality, and his depressive condition. The latter makes me aware of some kind of similar narratives that I could encounter in other therapeutic alliances. I feel that with Andrew I am struggling to follow the rhythm and the pace he gave to the session. The ‘dance’ between us sometimes goes out of synch, as he unexpectedly stops and starts (with his silences and overwhelming recounts). This produces in me a constant vigilant state that makes the therapeutic relationship very tiring. However, there are also times in this unsynchronised dance where I am in and out of our therapeutic alliance; the ‘in time’ is when I am present and part of the client’s world and the ‘out’ is when I am the spectator of his world. During this time I move back into my own space where I can reflect and try to make sense of my, his and our world. I am realising more and more the wide river that runs through the client’s intellect and the solid bridge that we need to construct to be able to move freely from one shore to the other. Sometimes I feel that building that bridge is a huge task, and I wonder if we will succeed. The doubt is possibly to do with Andrew being my first client and the complex world